The phone has messages says the blinking red light
I should probably check - they keep gathering
The laundry is past due - clothes overflowing the basket
Strewn wrinkled worn but not touched
Hunger knocks but I'd rather make coffee
I head to the kitchen and then withdraw hastily
The sink is filled - when was the last time I cooked ?
Oh yeah! That dinner with friends …… a faint memory
I head out to get food
They stare at the world outside
These bugs on my windshield
staring at the world
This world - moving changing
moving on till everythings changed
it is night now - a sunday night
work is tomorrow - I should sleep
yet I am fascinated with the clock
4:05 AM tick tick tick …..
I get into the shower - the water is cold
I shiver and yet, wish to feel it more
Oh it has been so long
The numbness has begin to hurt
I run the water harder
Hoping it drowns the sobs
Monday afternoon and I take a break ..
"Hey! How are you?" says a friend
I didn't notice or may be I refuse to
"Are you ok ?"
"I am fine" - I say
I am staring at the coffee
It is going cold ..